Pool Pictures 06/29

Here are a few pics that I forgot to post along with the new post just a few minutes ago...DUH...Blonde moment!! He did so good today.....even better when my camera battery died...Bwahahaha!!!!

I love this lil guy......we are truly blessed to have each other!!!!

~Tina



Hurry Up, Mommy! What mommy hasn't heard that at least a million times?

Today, Joshua and I went to our "local" pool that has an INCREDIBLE kiddie pool area!! It is complete with a frog that the kiddos slide down his tongue into the water!! Joshua can't get enough of it.....as a matter of fact, he said today that he wanted to be there for 1,000 days!! That would be nice, huh?

Well, on our way to the pool, Joshua said, "Hurry up, Mommy! They might close the pool again (like last time we were there for only 30 minutes but that is forever to a 4 yr old) for Thunder!" I said, "Honey, there isn't a cloud in the sky. You don't have anything to worry about, ok." He sounded extrememly puzzled with his next comment: "Well, then where is God!?" I asked, "What do you mean, 'where is God?'"

He replied, "Well, God lives up in Heaven in the clouds and if there aren't any clouds, where did He go?"

WOW.....how insightful! I went on to tell him how God lives in each of our hearts all the time and that he's with us no matter where we go and BTW.....I did tell him that God doesn't actually live "IN the clouds".

My lil man....he did something else today that was so chivalrous (sp?)!! While at the pool today, a young kiddo splashed me horribly......and mind you, I wasn't planning on getting very wet because I didn't bring dry clothes to change into. I wasn't a happy camper and Joshua noticed the look on my face I reckon and said something so sweet......"Mommy, I'll save you! I'm gonna find that boy and make him tell you he's sorry!" But he said it in the kindest way!!!! I told him that sometimes we have to let things slide and not worry about them. That some things aren't really as big as we make them out to be. Boy did I need to hear that one myself.....lol. I was at a pool for goodness sakes and I didn't expect to get wet? In the kiddie area!?

We had a great day, the very best day......

Blessings....

~Tina

Made the JUMP!! The SPLASH!! Whatever you want to call it...

Yep, we did it. What do you ask? Joshua is going to counseling for his anxiety, anger and most definately his seperation issues. We've been trying to do this "on our own" (sorta) since day one......with the kind help of an organization that helps only until the bugger is three then they are left to the school district if the school district feels there is a need, called First Steps. Well, to say the least, First Steps did help "SOMEWHAT" but it was soonafter that he was back to his ways of doing what he knew best.....survival in his world.

Joshua has only had 2, count 'em, two appointments with Ms. X so far. First appt went very very well. Too well I might think. But now I think the lil guy is figuring out that we want him to talk and he's not having too much of a part of it....he just wants to play with her toys....all of them. He did communicate to some level....but not much eye contact was made (like it was the first time we were there....man, he was on target then) and certainly he was pushing her away when she wanted to talk to him about something more than just the toy he was playing with. He also didn't like the fact that she DID NOT have any Thomas trains....how dare she....LOL!!!!! I really felt for her and my dear child.....I WANT things to go well.....I WANT him to communicate so that he can start to feel better about things......I WANT him to start to feel better about himself.....oh yeah.....she said that his "need" to win at EVERYTHING and EVERYTIME is a lack of self-confidence in himself....that he doesn't feel good about himself....OUCH! That one hurt. My son doesn't feel good about HIMSELF? WOW.....what an eye-opener for me. I always saw the laughing, funny, easy-going kiddo and thought sure, he's got some issues, but never for a second did I feel that he lacked for that. Don't get me wrong here......I feel awful about the other issues as well.....just wasn't prepared for that one.



Now.....how do we get to a place where he can self-regulate? Where he can not be so sensitive to all things in his world? Maybe he just has to learn to deal? I know that I REALLY need to educate myself on a few issues and things before we go much further. I do KNOW this to be true....there is TRUE hope in Jesus and I'll be teaching that to that lil guy.

We are planning on making a "Story of Joshua" and "The Story of Our Family" together.....all of us together....daddy too.....Mr. Crafty himself....LOL. Ms. X thinks this will help Joshua.....why? Can't really remember at the moment. I was too worried about Joshua being in the other room....alone. What was he thinking? Was he scared as he usually is? I really should be listening to Ms. X, but my sweet Joshua is 25' away from me....and he's....A-L-L alone!! WOW....he did it....he made it in the room all alone....I'm so proud of my lil man!!!!!! You see, Joshua can't go into a room alone.....hardly ever. AND HE DID IT!!!!! In a practically unfamiliar place too! I'm one proud mama bird!! I wanna see those wings spread and fly someday soon!!!!!  

~Tina