A Good Read with Possibilities?

Oh my goodness has it been almost a month since I've written? I'm so sorry to keep out of touch like that. A lot has been going on here. A lot with Joshua and a lot with me. Tony works crazy hours anymore since the river is up and he is almost on forced OT.....he has been working about 35 hours a week OT for a few months now and it doesn't look to be ending anytime soon. My chronic pain has been through the roof. So I've been kinda out of the loop so to speak....even on Facebook....lol. I never miss a day of FB to at least catch up on a few things but out of the last 10-14 days I think I've only been on there maybe 3 times. Now, as far as Joshua.....wow. What can I say, but he is getting worse in his separation anxiety. He's starting to act out now. Moreso at preschool than at home...but still at home too. So our days are full to say the least.

This is what I've been up to:

I got an Amazon Kindle for Valentines Day and have been trying to read, read and read some more. BUT....I try to keep up on the stuff that can help our situation.....adoption and trauma related reading. Right now, I'm just starting to read a book called, "The Connected Child: Bring Hope and Healing to Your Adoptive Family" by Dr. Karyn Purvis. I have 32 books on my Kindle, almost all of which are of this type with a few for Joshua (Thomas the Train for us to read together) and 2 games.

It is so DARN HARD to figure out which is the FIRST book to read to help our plight. I've started probably 3 and then find another that fits better. The good thing.....I can always go back to the others I've already started and even go back to refer to them throughout my reading.

I just want what's best for my lil man and God entrusted this lil guy to my care....how blessed am I!!!! Being a mom of an adoptive child is HARD WORK....no one ever said it was easy and if they did.....never adopted! Heck, being a mom is HARD WORK.....plain and simple. We all want to do it right.....but we will make mistakes.....sometimes big ones. Just pick up our pieces and learn from them, say we're sorry (how important that is) and move onward.

I've contacted a counselor and am thrilled to be able to get him in (eventually as she has no room right now but will call when they do) as they have cancellations for the time being. I honestly have been dying to get Joshua to see her for a long time but finally have gotten my husband on board. He is so protective and only wants to have the best for Joshua and was worried they'd put him on meds....I told Tony that we make that decision.....besides counselors don't put them on meds, medical Dr's do. He felt better about that and FINALLY saw the light after three days of 3 hours of a meltdown like none other. I just thank the Good Lord above that Tony's on board!! FINALLY!

What are you reading and is it helping? I can only pray and pray that I do the very best that I possibly can by that lil guy! He's the best thing that ever happened to me aside from my other 2 babies (who are now 22 and 19) and Tony!!! I've got the best family one could ask for! I'm one lucky girl!